Stop

I love this idea of a blog. Not that anyone else will know about it, but I have always found writing a release for me! And currently I am looking for "releases"....
I don't know what has changed the last couple of weeks, but I am NOT myself! I am yearning for more...something. I am HAPPILY married, so that is not what I am "looking" for. But I do think that my kids are the center of my searching....the reality of it is setting in. I am a mother of 4, only 31...but what do I give to my children.
Myself...day in and out, attention, love, knowledge, silliness...
What will this all mean to them someday? Will they carry on where I left off? I remember my childhood VERY fondly, but I do things very different than my parents did. I miss having the carefree laugh of a 15 year old, I miss enjoying just a sunny day...not worrying about the little things....I remember being curious...NOW I seem to be so wrapped up in the miniature non- important things that shouldn't matter!
I LOVE my children, and forget that not all of them are not from me-genetically, but they are from and in my heart, and I never knew I could feel this way 5 times over! They are such individuals, yet they do so many of the same things, it simple does AWE me everyday!

Our oldest son has been having problems lately, and now we are debating what our next step should be! We had him evaluated last year after a failed attempt into public school, EVERYONE said that he had ADHD with Tourettes. Let me tell you first hand though that this child is like a ROLLER COASTER....I will touch more on this again!

Toy Story theme...
Isa (7) Jesse
Will (7) Buzz
Brandon (5) Woody
Gabi (3.5) Bo Peep

All for PBS....

Okay, so yesterday my daughter was trying to stay home from school, she had last week as a skip day last week to greet dad at the airport, and her nose was KINDA green looking--the stuff in it, not the outside. So I kinda hounded her..."Are you sure you can't make it, you REALLY feel sick??" She could muster out a "yes". "Okay but up to your room to rest and read books...no t.v. right now"
About 20 minutes later she yelled down "Mom I just thew up!"
Okay, so she didn't feel well, she passed the official test, and now "You may watch PBS"
She is feeling better, and I not so guilty!

Nothing of Interest

So I have been reading several blogs over the last couple of months...

Me? Why would someone want to read what I have written? I am doing this more for myself! I am a pretty selfish person...


I have 4 children, 7,7,5 and almost 4....I never thought I would be wanting more, but I am...I did always "say" that I wanted to have 10 kids...but the way our family came together was almost overnight, and we are still adapting.

Long story short--we took in a sibling set of 3, through foster care and since have adopted all three. Our bio. daughter is 1 1/2 mo. older than our son, so sometimes the comparisons start to arise, but then there are several factors that I need to keep in mind...I will touch on those later.

A few things that I would like to cover RELIGION, BOYS will be BOYS?, HOMESCHOOLING, WHY ARE 3yo SO ANGRY?....these are just a few...

Until then